Everyone needs compassion
And love that never fails
Let mercy fall on me

When everyone needs forgiveness
Kindness of the Saviour
The Hope of the nation

Saviour, He can move the mountains
My God is mighty to save
He is mighty to save
Forever author of salvation
He rose and conquered the grave
Jesus conquered the grave

So take me as you find me
All my fears and failures
Fill my life again
I give my life to follow
Everything that i believe in
Now i surrender

Shine a light in and
let the whole world see
Singing, for the glory of the risen king
Jesus, Shine a light and
let the whole world see
Singing for the glory of the risen king

timothy (lee), CPS 6/2, 1G07 2G08 3K09
psalms 27:4
God, Bball, Future MNC, Music, YPM, Friends, Family, Anger and Ego Management, Mugger Association Elected President, Dreams to parkour properly with yu siang, fall for sitong again, poke WC, get killed by ZH, win interclass, make a proper pass to JZ, reconcile with C...

-5:21 AM

Empty;

Now life's about mugging. Period.
Work, more work.
Wonder if I'll ever experience it again.

I wonder if it will ever come back again
Make my life better again
(Or maybe not?)


Again I'm looking to games to fill the empty spaces.
Not good.


Hais.
I don't really know what can be done.
The day shall come.
I must wait.


-7:10 AM

I don't know if I really need to say anything now, huh?
It's like,
CTs are coming, I mean they are alr here,
Ppl mug here and there
Me too, of cos,
But for the sake of it, I just come here to blog lors.

Now its getting quiet again.
Everyone's busy chionging they dun rlly come msn,
They dun rlly update their blogs.
I srsly wonder what some ppl do at home other than work.
I wonder how their home is like?

People ou ran will come here,
Give me some moral support,
Like anon ppl,
Thanks alot lah.
But what I am feeling now is what I must go through,
and I only I can pull myself out from it.

I dun rlly want to expose too many things here anymore
Lest everything gets too obvious.
Hais,
Cheers to a better day.
Giving you a smile. :)


-6:58 AM

Thank you.
My hair is screwed now.
It's short, spiky, cute, weichia-stereotype, anti-sitong and very ada la.
At least I know weichia and ada will support spike la.
But weichia supports more of BOTAK then spike.

Guess I'll live with it first.
Any way can consider a fresh start or something.


BITTORRENT IS PWNAGE.
<3333333333
Bittorrent is the ultimate love.
Sitong is cute la, call me while jogging. Next time I will do that to you also.
Imagine you do that to iris,
Sure think you damn macho one.
I go call Sylvester la
I bet he'll get horny (jk)

Im not emo today good.
Bittorrent is great.


-7:28 PM

Sometimes feelings can't be controlled.

You are not here anymore.
It's okay.
This isn't here for you to make you feel bad anymore.
I don't think you come here and waste your time anymore.
It's for my friends,
Always there to cheer me up;
I need them to know.

Its quite obvious how hard I'm trying la
It's not easy but its progressing
Ruo says I can still hold on, if its there, I do not need to supress it.
But I need to.
If I hold on, while you're not there,
aren't I just holding on to shadows of my imagination that still linger all so faithful?
I went for jogging with my father.
While jogging.
he asked: 'what do you want to be in the future?'
I shook my head
I never really thought what I wanted to be in the future.
Physics Phenomenon? Teacher? Surgeon? Engineer? Manager? Lawyer? Sweeper? Maintenance officer?

My father would occasionally tell me how hard he had tried to forget crushes in his secondary school life.
He said it was painful,
He said it made him tired.
I would fake a smile and tell him: 'Dad, I don't think I'll ever understand that pain'
Maybe he knew I would,
as he stopped talking about it since.
But still,
After earning his degree, he met my mother and they are what they are today.



The on top part to you all may be gl and useless la
But like what Jaslyn tells me;
人生短暂，数十寒暑...凡事顺其自然，想太多也是没用的。放下包袱，开心就好...
You guys never know (even wc and sitong)
How much sometimes a thoughtless phrase you made,
Has changed my life,
Changed my attitude.
Sitong and wc puts those meaningful phrases in crude ways, but they are meaningful all the same.


Sometimes,
I wonder if I can ever let go.
I wonder if she'll ever turn back.

But no,
Someday, it must disappear from my head; since it has already disappeared from hers.
She goes, never will come back.
You are here, and will never waver.
I press on and she disappears
I cling on and you cling on with me.
I feel whole with her
But never did I realise how much before; you had filled me.
Someday, I will really really rejoin you all in the joy you all can grasp and understand.
Someday it might all just end.
Someday, I will find the true meaning of forever and why it really is there.
One day, forget will just be a catchphrase
And friends will be everything in eternity.

Thank you, my friends =D


-8:33 AM

Sometimes you get a feeling, a thought, a quiet sentence that only you can feel,
You can understand,
While no one else will.
Sitong understand that too.

Being smileyman is hard la.
You guys know it also lo.
'It may sound absurd
But don't be naive
Even heroes have the right to bleed'
Tough luck man.
Srsly.

I don't know la
I wonder if any of you got the feeling of getting filled with emotion
Then suddenly, it gets robeed away from you
It's like getting shtted out by a Dementor or something.

I don't even say I'm emo la.
It's empty
A bit of void of feelings,
Cliches, fakes, mixed agendas etc

But ya lah,
I'm living it like I always do lo.
I wonder if I take everything according to nature or what will be better la
The most I be some dao-er lo
(But not to gemma of cos)

I'm just sian.
Damn bloody tired.
You think you're on cloud nine when some jet plane knocks you back down to earth.
Tell me, someone.
Tell me you feel the same of which I feel.


-8:06 AM

I FEEL LIKE A HERO
AND SILVERS RAYLEIGH BE MY HEROINE

I must agree with wc. One piece srsly pwns.
I like d gray man and slam dunk la, but you see one piece lehs
Its glorious man, i open the book and i cant see the words properly


TY ADA AND RUO FOR THE CHEERUPS AND STUFF
And ada, dun fake me.
If I rlly said the name out b4, jus say 8D or sth can?

Erm, reminder to Sitong, WC and Geo, 2mr bring pe shirt DUO XIE


-5:48 AM

Changed blogskin

Lol, i hope sitong reopens his tagboard lehs

Oh yah speaking of anti emo ness

I AM EGO AND I LIKE IT =D
I RELISH AT BRINGING SMILE TO YOUR FACES
IT MAKES ME FEEL HIGH.
for you, I'll make you smile

I'm smileyman sia
Back to one piece~ cya
To ppl like Sylvester, relax, your tags wont go unanswered.


-6:08 AM

Hmmm
Tagged by ruo to do (as in her blog la)
TYPE YOUR FIRST NAME WITH YOUR...
1.FINGERS: Timothy
2.CHIN: gfkjmkghy (tough luck la tamade)
3.ONE FINGER, EYES CLOSED: Timothy
4.ELBOW: t6i9mothy (lol, elbow there got proturding bone so can passe lo)
5.NOSE: In case wc, sitong or richard calls me dog ah, i ownt do it sey
6.PALM: r6iunmoifthy (not bad sey)
I srsly think this will lead to my laptop keys breaking down

1. List four fandoms you have.
♥ Anime
♥ Basketball
♥ Piano
♥ The guai lan bunch of tough lucked up people who make up my best friends, Gemma too

2. Have you ever slept in the back of a car?
I always sit at the front of the car. I listen to music. Don't fall asleep cos my father takes ECP and PIE alternatively; so imba leh my father

3. Have you recently dyed your hair/cut it?
No, but soon. (cut, i wanna shave botak like wc)

4. List four people that you look up to the most.
♥ Myself
♥ God
♥ Jay Chou
♥ Lee Kuan Yew
I am very tiao ti on who i look up to. The people here are the bestest in acheiving =D (exclud. number 1)

6. Which do you prefer white or black?
Hmm not really like both leh. I not into colors anymore la. But if must choose must be white la, see richard so yandao (as quoted by me and wc's parents) and white de;

7. Who is your most played character?
Game? [S]Vegeta
Play? 米太亚得

8. Choose one or the other, not both: Being stuck on an island with a friend, or being stuck on an island with 5 acquaintances?
I dun even want to be stuck on an island in the first place. The most I swim out until drown. But if must choose, 5 acquaintances. Together we will built a raft so that we may escape. 2 heads are better than 1, but 6 heads pwn 2 heads hands down.

9. Name three aspects that tell who you are.
Moodswinger
Emo kid
Guai Lan Kia

10. If you could have a power what would it be?
I want to (like ruo; dun say i copy paste) read ppl's minds, any superpower so i can save the world and save myself from boredom (e.g. metal body parts xD, hancock power, One Ring's power etc)

11. Who was the last person you talked to?
Wei Chia

12. Who was the last person you said "I love you" to?
If you mean literally say out loud will be to Sitong (that was out of impulse f.y.i pls dun start omg-ing)
Digitally leh...

13. Write down the first five words that pop into your head:
Why I doing this quiz?

14. What's one thing you wish you could do better?
Explain myself better

15. Do you like the way you are?
Okay lorh, maybe 15 cm more and skin whitener will help in the perfection

16. Choose, summer or winter:
Winter cos i can go play balls (as in snowballs) with the guai lan people but i dun think sg will have

17. Rain or snow:
Rain. When I emo, i walk in the rain. When I'm happy, I walk in the rain with an umbrella. It is a good habit.

18. Water or ice?
Water, as according to line 1 of wikipedia's refernce page of 'Water', it states that 'Water is a common chemical substance that is essential for the survival of all known forms of life.' Ice is nice, can let you skate, drink cold stuff, crunch with teeth, but without water, you wouldn't even have met me here, in this very earth.

19. List two odd things about yourself:
Emo spasms when certain ppl say certain things, Sudden flaring up of guai lan-ness, proven by my friends who certainly have the same problem.

20. Who are two of your bad habits:
The person who made this quiz grammar abit gl. It's 'What are two of your bad habits' Erm, see above lol.

21. What's 1 of your biggest pet peeve?
F.y.i, pet peeve means something that can instil great frustration into an individual, may it be a thought, an object or a static material. My biggest pet peeve is the scenario when ppl dun tell me what I want them to tell me lol

22. Now list 6 people who should do this quiz:
1. Sitong
2. Richard
3. Natalie
4. Fabian
5. Daniel
6. Big Balls Ben

Im just listing out ppl whose blog i know, and havent done yet.


Maybe one of these days I'll just say 'hi!'
Its not because I decided to acknowledge you,
But more because I have finally let go to the thought
That you are still there for me

Like a burden spilt from the abyss of a heart that I have possessed


-6:29 AM

I have finally found anti-emo in Richard's and WC's method of searching wiki for random (I mean rlly rlly rlly random) stuff. Lol e.g. Fire ants, thermite (as in the substance, not the insect), lord of the rings, heath ledger, dunman high school, saint timothy, goofy dog, American Gods by Neil Gaiman and Rocket Science.

Wikipedia is really one of the nicest things to explore, they have like 1000000000000000000000000000000 pages of knowledge for you. Some may be explicit though =x

Yeah, just f.y.i im rlly rlly not emo now, not wearing mask or anything
Just damn zhao ji for exam (sch and piano)

I'm looking at cute, lame, shtty and funny display pics on msn now
Richard has some super gay polar bear
Natalie has some dancing sheep which she calls 'yangmehmeh'
Fabian Macs pic with the tradmark Im lovin it
WC has some sibei gl anatomy of a man's brain pic
My one is some cute dog
And JJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJGirllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll has meeeeeeee staring at her phone
And don't tag okay, miss. If you want to kpkb (jk) pls talk on msn aft ppl say this and that


Hmm, back to wiki le, cya
Oh ya, for xu ning, sherl, wc and geo
D GRAY MAN ROCKS ALLEN ROCKS
CROSS ROCKS EVERTHING THAT MAKES D GRAY MAN ROCKS
---


-7:39 AM

Will life ever be the same again?

In a day, it struck me twice in my heart
Or preferably one in the heart, one in the conscience.
Is this still the life I was leading?
Or has it gone astray?

WC now just does his work
Sitong plays lesser piano, talks much lesser, blogs less.
Gemma girls so quiet and emo

I try to deceive myself that Im like WC, unaffected, dun care dun care
But is it me?
How long can I hold this mask unto my face?
I make a new blog and type sth funny, but is it funny?
Or is it just lies I weave to make myself feel that it is funny?

Today was rlly,
How do I say it;
It was tough luck.
(Uber) Tough Luck.
Now, 2G is like the black sheep amongst year 2s,
Its like everytime sth happens wrong
It must be 2G
What have we all done, that we must suffer from this?
What are our mistakes so grave that we must get repeated punishment?

Okay, maybe I was wonrg,
I'm sorry
I said things that have made you hurt and made you think that I lie but
When I needed you the most,
You were not there,
Maybe you just looked if I still had passion
But it was a day of tough luck.
I hadn't the mind to.


-7:09 AM

I oversaw you
And it was a fault on my part
You were just a friend;

I oversaw you
Like you were just a cloud
You floated beside me
Which I couldn't do without

I made you feel
Like you were just a tool
A tool for imagination...

Now you tell me
I am in love
And he's the one for me

I feel a thrashing going on in my heart
Like you were always close to me

In one shot you took my heart away
Then I took it back from you
In one fiery shot
I made you my friend
And now its my regret
Don't go;

I took you for granted
Now I want you back
It's killing me!

You tell me, I'm in love already
And I'm sorry I won't talk to you no more
Cos' I'm busy~

In one shot you killed me
In one shot I took the death away
I didn't know how important you were to me
Until this day.

Don't go away.

[Edit]Do you know that faithful day, when I realised you liked someone else, it took my life away. It wasn't rlly today. I thought it would never happen, but it did. A guy suddenly became your lover. And it's taking me astray[Edit]

Oh ya, my gl alternative blog is up le


-6:53 AM

EXTRA EXTRA EXTRA
i'VE FINALLY OPENED A NEW BLOG FOR THE SAKE OF THE GL KIAS
WC, RICHARD, SITONG, FABIAN, GEOFFREY
AND ALL OF U EMO KIAS
GO THERE AND HAVE FUN

This blog is still on, it is my life lols. But the gl one will be updated as much too. Everything is going to be funny and gl. Ty.

www.timoisthenewbarney.blogspot.com


-7:54 AM

To actually think I can change my mood in just a matter of minutes.

Why must you all appear when it is most painful?
I just get assaulted
And you appear, biaobaiing, and open it further
Then you hold back

In front of my friends I say that it is impossible
You couldnt have said anything
You are some *****
But do they know me inside?
Tell me what you feel!
FUCK
I dun like nostalgia cos its confusing and suspense

Don't just jump in like that
But then take out a cloak to hide ur own face.

If u need be,
Tell it to me in my face.

-And ur miss gg


-7:43 AM

I feel much lighter now, not as in weight but as in the mind
Dunno why
Maybe learning how to let go of confusion is just that relieving;
I always wanted to know what everyone really was;
But i guess now, I won't rlly.
After my previous post, maybe I'll just live without confusion and burdens again.

I reopened the tagboard and im going to get the blogskin changed.

Life is still fucked up.
But those things can't be helped.
If I fell into it,
So can you.
What rights do I have to stop anyone?


-3:00 AM

Who are you? Who am I to you?
In this world, there is definitely one 'me', one 'you' and one 'everyone else'
There are times when we can call things 'awesome' and sometimes 'fucked up'
Our friends, our crushes, our schoolmates, our seniors.
We know you, we are close to you, they say.

Let's face it.
To everyone else, each individual is a stranger.
I don't know what's going on in your mind. Neither do you. Thats the theory of this era.
Close?
There is no such word.
BFF?
Maybe, but where has forever left to? Is there a vacation for forever?

We are bonded,
We are strong.
We are what we deem we are.
But there will always be something we will never know about ther other party at the opposite end, and so does the other party second from the end and so on.

So yes,
We have to face it some day.
We do not know each other.
There are millions of secrets, dark and shallow.
But still,
if one is to go crazy and angry about that,
feeling that something is hidden,
then what really are friends?

People say, choose your friends wisely.

But see, choose and you will find.
But in the end, does sticking with them make you happy?

A man once said,
It is something like fate. Maybe God chose your friends to make when you were born, and whether they lead you here or there, it is all destined.

Maybe what he said was right,
so let all our friendships be unconditional, no matter how much they make you feel shit
No matter how they make you seem like you are useless,
Press on abit,
Change yourself for the better
And you will realise.
It is friendship, after all.



Lol, I sound like some philospoher sia.
AND WC, THIS IS NOT, I REPEAT, NOT COPY PASTED WORK.
COPYRIGHT TIMOTHY2008


-7:23 AM

No matter how big our mistake, my stumble, your distraction; I believe we can stay the same

I don't maen anything to you by saying this but:
Thinking about you everyday
Hoping to hear from you ereryday
Wishing for you to say '---' everyday
I was thinking throughout the competition;
Have I been worrying too much about your feelings that I haven't noticed about my own feelings?
Maybe living everyday in revolution of yours is maing me tired,
But I just don't want to let go of it yet.





Yes, to you, my feelings are the same.


-7:13 AM

It's too late baby, there's no turning around
I got my hands in my pocket and my head in a cloud
This is how I do
When I think about you
I never thought that you could break me apart
I keep a sinister smile and a hole in my heart
You want to get inside
Then you can get in line
But not this time

Cause you caught me off guard
Now I'm running and screaming

I feel like a hero and you are my heroine

I won't try to philosophize
I'll just take a deep breath then I'll look in your eyes
This is how I feel
And it's so surreal
I got a closet filled up to the brim
With the ghosts of my past and their skeletons
And I don't know why
You'd even try
But I won't lie

You caught me off guard
Now I'm running and screaming
I feel like a hero and you are my heroine
Do you know that your love is the sweetest sin?

And I feel a weakness coming on
It never felt so good to be so wrong
Had my heart on lockdown
And then you turned me around
And I'm feeling like a newborn child
Every time I get a chance to see you smile
It's not complicated
I was so jaded

IDMI is over yay
Palanam shall be remembered forever, staying late everyday,
Talking nonsense, playing icy tower
Bugis and Jurong NLB
Everything was our work and sweat, our life and our dilligence.
I dun rlly care abt the marks anymore
Or the grades
Our week together may probably be the best group project week ever in my schooling life =D


Maybe you'll think I'm hard to get
Or always doing it over and over again
But everytime I think we're going there
It just disappears
Something crops up
Something pulls us further apart

I'll take a deep breath and I'll look in your eyes
This is how I feel
And it's so surreal
I don't think you'll know I'm looking.
Just don't turn away D:
I can't believe I'm searching for something in you now
And it's YOU.
Not anyone else okay, stop naming.


-8:56 AM

Hais. Blog is so half-dead alr. Sorry BTH.bs.com
IDMI week is hectic
I rlly wanna change blogskin, but no time now.
IDMI grp rocks, even tho I nvr expected it at first.
Been thru so much in this week,
I guess we're more bonded now
Now I'll start talking to u all when I see u all.

Cos we're Gemma.

Er,
Didnt know you went there until ur sms
Yeah, I hope everthing stays okay.
He biaobai ah
=/
Folo ur heart lo
If his biaobai bcoms meaningful, then let it be lo

I suddenly like songs by Boys like Girls
Even tho the name abit gl.
Their songs pei me thru the whole IDMI.
Hope we all do well.
jy for u too. slackers wont bring u down ok, rmb what u said hor
If anything hurts me, I just rmb but make sure it won't happen to me again, so i won't get hurt twice

To all self-acclaimed pros like wc, i hope u lose me in idmi hahahahahahaha
Sitong, I go practice piano anthr day, maybe can play with u soon.
I actually wanted to say sth dam emo.
I go leave for my next post. 2mr or fri, maybe?

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